how fragile is the flame that burns within us all to light each passing day? ~ bad religion

happy valentine's day

couples all lovey dovey because it's valentines day need to get over themselves.
singles all bitter over couples all lovey dovey are even worse. go away.

i have the idea that if a holiday is worthy of being celebrated, it's prolly worthy of being appreciated everyday, not token-once-a-year.

that said, now for what's really sweet about valentines day:

the st. valentine's day massacre of 1929

They entered the building and a few moments later, the clatter of machine gun fire broke the stillness of the snowy morning. Soon after, five figures emerged and they drove away. May's dog, inside of the warehouse, was barking and howling and when neighbors went to check and see what was going on... they discovered a bloody murder scene.
Moran's men had been lined up against the rear wall of the garage and had been sprayed with machine-guns.

snowflakes:yet another reason hometown san diego is inferior

you are not a beautiful and unique snowflake..

symmetry is sexy.

so i have a crush on christiane amanpour

what of it?

i was watching cnn's coverage of bush's inaugural 40million dollar party (for himself(in a time of war)). so right as the band starts up, ready to parade out the bush family, they splitscreen to an interview with christiane amanpour to get her scoop on how the troops are taking in the big event...
this is why i love her.
she is queen of subtle ambush journalism in american media, or in other words, she tells the truth. long story short, she side stepped the question and went into a 3 minute rant about the chaos that is iraq. noting how yesterday was the most violent day in months, to abu ghraib prison torture, to chaos that is the upcoming elections, to our troops not having supplies needed, to... she just wouldn't stop. and the beauty is she can get away with it. and she did. all to live footage backdrop of a 40million dollar party for one man.
it was pretty. it was perspective.

humanclock.com

1440 pictures a day. goddamnit. the amount of useless shit the internet creates. i wouldn't have it any-other-way. i love it.
it's 1:05 am, now.
 

capital N small y, big fucking Q

right now it's raining.
right now even though it's 9am, the cold won't let the sun come out.
right now my immune system is letting me down, again.
right now i have only one true love in this world,

right now i'm going to sleep.

introducing project 2005

project 2005 - a fly went by  and 51 other titles

52 weeks
52 books

as i am 0 for 29 in new years resolution plotting, i shall cease to call them as such & in its place, i introduce project 2005.  a new book for each week of the year culminating in a grandiose reciting of the first book i can remember reading, a fly went by

 

week 1
All the Shah's Men: An American Coup and the Roots of Middle East Terror
by Stephen  Kinzer

in 1953, america staged its first coup d'etat of a democratically elected government.

how could you NOT want to read this??

a fair account of what went down.  i was half expecting for the slant to be very anti-us, but that hardly proved to be the case.  most of the details were first hand accounts taken direct from the memoirs of those who were involved.
excellent read.

100 things we didn't know this time last year

linky

70. And reports of UFOs have dwindled since the late 1990s. In the UK, sightings have gone from about 30 a week to almost zero; it's a trend echoed in the US and Norway.

71.5 art bell sighted getting nervous about job security... 

 

i can't resist

you GOTTA be gd kidding me.  low and behold, the ayn rand dating site!

the idea of proud selfish women carrying around a copy of atlas shrugged basking in their self proclaimed glory of intellectual elitism is too much to resist

i am so there, for real. it's ON.

to be fair though, i'm not sure i disagree..

three's ?

more wedding bells. news has come that two of my best friends growing up as a child have crossed the line, committed to do so anyway. i consider both their women very lucky, indeed.
i want to be elated over it, with no but.
but, a part of our friendship is dying along with their wedding vows.

things will never be the same.

it's ok. doors close, doors open.
i wish them all the best in the world.

perspective

i found out today my ex girlfriend is getting married.  it made me physically ill. i can't eat, sleep, or concentrate, and when i'm really lucky, i shake a little. 1/2 way around the world an 8.9-magnitude earthquake  -the largest earth quake in 40 years- hit the asian coasts. they are estimating the death toll @40k+
which am i more sad about?
i am selfish. really.
i need to learn compassion. i want to be compassionate (v.) towards people i don't know and never will.
this has been a low month in my life, most likely the lowest. and as such, can't sink much further. so, as the sun rises, the shadows dim, and i walk away a better person. allegedly.
the thought of giving blood makes me want to faint like a 6 year old girl. but you can help in other ways, too